Saturday, April 5, 2008
i've gt trouble e dae bfore ytd. bad dae. gwenda, sj, ignored me. rae ignored me. was cry lyk hell. tt was when nora wanted 2 make me laugh... tt's when she find gab n ter. 2 wanted 2 confort me. then, gab n ter jus ignored her. n she suddenly cum back cryin. then, v were lyk conforting each other. wanting all ur sorry's 2 b delievered back 2 me is hard....
sry, nora n gab... i noe i m e one hu started tis n i cant jus bring it back lyk e past... n now i realised y sj gave up bringing me n zhi ming back 2 e past when she told her i lyk zhi ming... i noe i m in e wrong n i noe tt i m e one hu changed. cos, jerry told me tt i act veri bitchy. i m nt angry when he told me tt. bcos i noe. he wanted me 2 change tt's y he told me tt. tt nite, i asked jerry wad is e meaning of bitch, bastard, n slud. he told me crap abt it. nvm.
ytd, it's better. gwenda tok 2 me. sj tok 2 me. rae tok 2 me. but e frenship btwn nora n gab is nt better. it's even badder. i noe i m e one. i m e one hu break UR fwenship. so sry. i wanted 2 help but cant. so sry.. i noe gab n nora quarrelled mayb bcos of me la..
readin nora's blog. i cried. n continued when i write tis blog post. so sry. so sry 4 being e one... e one hu is bad... so sry. now, alll i wanted 2 be is 2 make gab n nora 2 b fwens again. i noe it is nt possible. nvr 2 b possible. if it is, it is unbelieveable. unbelieveable tings dun happened. will nvr happen. wanted 2 help gab. now, i tink cant. when, i call nora cum, cant call gab. call gab cant call nora. now, i m stuck. realli stuck....
wanted 2 tok abt my past. my whole life. but i tink. i hav no mood 4 tt. i tink, e nxt post bah.. now, i noe e meaning of stuck. now, i noe e meaning of hate. now, i noe e meaning of ... sad...
sry, 4 sayin tis , " though my heart has lots of scars, tis is e deepest n will nvr b healed...eva...".
now, i m washin my hands over tis problem. but i will still tok 2 gabby n nora la... dun worri.
i promise myself nt 2 love anyone else unless he love me as much as i lyk zhi ming...
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