Wednesday, March 18, 2009
i dono what happen lah.. nora let others know her blog. then, she link my personal blog.. then, others will know my personal blog.. but nvm lah... anyway, nothing confidential is in here. all is inside my heart and my diary.. i guess... our friendship is over. i dono lah.. if anyone i dono tag my blog, i will change url. i change url and i would not tell anyone. unless someone ask me. i do not want to force anyone to come here. i do not want to trouble anyone. i dun feel like going to choir. i dono... i really feel like crying.. just cant.. i dono what hapen to me and nora. maybe we just dono each other well enough. or maybe.. i changed. i really dono. can anyone just tell me what happen to me??
i dun wanna fight. i dun wana tell anyone how i feel. i just want to be myself. i know. a lot of you guys care for me but i just cant pull myself up. i just cant... maybe i really really need you. i dun know.. i just wanna be myself... just myself... no others...
sometimes, i wonder why am i here for... am i here to help people? or to give trouble to people? to fight with people? or to just kept quiet? sometimes, i just think that i am just a useless freak. useless... somnetimes, i think that i am harmful.. i think... i just live in my own world would be saver than staying in the reality. i dono why i keep meeting all these nice people that had their footprints in my heart. they just made a permanent prints in my heart that make me think of them. they make me think of them and that make me happy. make me live my life. i dono how am i going to live in such a state.
i really really love all these nice people... Arvin, Devin, Darren, Denise, Nora, Ros
gwenda, zhi ming, zhi xiong, Lucius... a lot a lot. those that seldom or never broke my heart. they made a permanent print in my heart. i dono...
i dono who am i now...
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