Sunday, September 18, 2011
Last minute asking people out is always my style and this time round, i managed to get xiaoyun out and accompany me to mcdonald for double chocolate because i have a sudden cravings for it. We met and walk around west mall while talking. I always don't ran out of topics and things to talk about and i have got no idea why this time round she don't feel angry or emotionless when i talk about devin. In the past months, when i start talking about things related to him, she will give me the emotionless face and so i will avoid talking about it but today she didn't have that expression. After we walk around west mall for more than 4 times, we went to mcdonald to get our food and drinks. There's open house today and so we went upstairs to get a table instead. After that, we walked home as usual and while she was accompanying me to wait for bus, she indirectly asked me a questionthat made me somewhat a little shocked. She asked me who i like currently. As for this question, i seriously do not have an exact answer. Because i myself do not know who i like. Although i kept feeling emo because for this guy, but i am sorry to say that i am not sure if i still like him or not. Because after i met him on sunday, i slowly realised that my love for him is the same as the past. That means that i must figure out if the feeling that i felt in the past is love or just normal friendship with him. But i will try my best to think about that. Although i might be unsuccessful in it...
The more i grow, i seems to understand slowly that two person that is in love with each other do not neccessary be together because they really might not be destinied to be together... But sometimes i do not think this way... How ironic...
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