Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Everyone had assignments everyday... But me.. I had a little less than what the rest have.. That's because i finished everything way earlier than usual. Because i hate being pushed for time and cannot take the fact that i have to rush assignments and waste my sleep for it.. With that leaves me more time to just being bored. And to that, it really brings a lot of boredom to me... Because everyone is busy rushing projects and no one will have the time to even talk to you at times.. But the thing is... Why are we so easily changed by the environment that we are in? Why are we always make changes, changing ourselves, or even making an effort to those around us when sometimes it cant be seen or sometimes people just dont care?
What happen to me recently is that i somehow "quarrelled" with my classmates just because of small things which is 'dont care'. It seems like they do not care about my existence... To me, being a quiet person in a group is already a torture but still i am willing to continue staying and what i get is so called close to being 'outcasted'... Even though that was only my part of the story, but still, to me it's a big trauma.. I once even changed myself just to fit into the group which is so not my style.. Now come to think of it, i am really stupid to just did that....
What happened to my close friend,Jesslyn just few hours ago is that she quarrelled with her family regarding some matters. I know it's not right for me to say it here. But i have to... She told me that she was really upset about it as she really care about her parents really that much and sometimes i look at it as loving her parents even more than her darling(because i dont love my parents that much and i love everyone equally), and what's more is that she was wondering why did her mum always not understanding her situation and not letting her live her lives her way and have to live her life her mum's way...
...And i am not a really good comforter as i understand how she feels but i really do not know how to tell her to calm down and do something about it or even give suggestions even though some people will come to me for such solutions... I did not even said good night to her like the usuals.. Because i am really not the best person to say about it.. And i wanted her to calm down.. Really really sorry about that..
i dont really know what happened to my aquarius brother recently because he is being too emo and really i wasnt the best person to even ask or comfort him. But everyone can see that he is being emo.. Even though i know he will figure it out by himself but now i m worried is that he is delaying all his assignments and stuff because of emo-ness...
I think the only thing that really brightens up my mood today is that xuan qing is texting me practically the whole day... Even though i wanted him to concentrate on his studies...
But still... sad life..
Song of the day: 心疼你的心疼
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